Silent Actions, Louder Words

Forgive me if I can't talk
Forgive me if I don't ask
Forgive me if I just watch
But it doesn't mean I don't care.

Maybe I want you to be open first
Maybe I don't know what to say
Maybe I don't want to pry
But I assure you, I do care

It may look like I've set barriers
Aren't there boundaries to everything?
I just don't want to push my luck with you.
If this is wrong please forgive me.

I'm sorry I'm overly cautious because I don't want anyone to get hurt.
I'm sorry I can't express myself so well to you
And I'm sorry, oh so sorry! That the boundaries I unconsciously create sort of push you away.

I know I'd sound more convincing if it showed in my actions,  cos I say one thing and do another,
I know there's only so much you can take before you decide to let go
But my fears are real.
Well, mixed with a bit of ego.

How do I know you won't reject me?       How do I know I won't regret telling you? How do I know, how do I know? 

The doubts... Always overshadowing the possibilities.

But underneath all that face, I care.
So much more than I would like and so much more than you can imagine.
And if you really think about it, you'd realize that I betray myself in little actions, maybe not too obvious.
Like how I can't keep my eyes of you
Like the silly excuses I make to talk to you
Like the disappointment I know shows in my eyes when another girl draws close to you, even though I smile.

Subtle they may be, but present they are. At least let this count.

Let this be our little secret 

And let my written words speak louder than my quieter actions.

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